On Wednesday June 7, 2017, I was graced to take Refuge. Ven. Chuc Thanh asked me to write a little something about what that experience meant to my in order to share those thoughts with the Sangha.
My experience is only part of the Whole. What I Know ( and I use the word Know to describe an internal awareness that is neither intuitive nor rational but an intrinsic part of me) on a most profound level is that I in the form of a Human Being am interconnected to everything that exists: manifest and unmanifest. When I took Vows I chose to devote the rest of my time in this body and future life times to practice and to uphold the Five Precepts of Buddhism as guiding principals for how I live my life as a Human Being. In addition I accepted the Gift of The Three Jewels of Buddhism: the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha as my support, foundation, resource and home. The more I practice the teachings and participate in Meditation and the Sangha, the deeper and increasingly profound my experience becomes.
At this point in my life, and I am almost 68 years old and I see my life from two angles. The first is the mundane. As such I see myself as a human being who believes that on a day-to-day existence I am committed to loving and being loved and being a good person. What I do to myself, I do to another and what I do to another, I do to myself. From the Meta perspective I practice the mundane within the structure and guidance of the 5 Precepts and the Grace of the 3 Jewels. In being graced with taking Refuge; my awareness, Knowingness and Commitment to the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha is my meaning in this lifetime and all others. I also make a promise to share that Knowingness with all who I come into contact with in a way that is palpable, compassionate, loving and kind. The depth of that Metaworld grows with practice. Experience, rather than words is the best way to describe this. To practice means to help others be open to the teaching. How do I describe my experience of Love, Kindness, Compassion, Oneness, Peace. Bliss, Consciousness? I alone know what that means to me. However, because we are all part of the Whole we all have the capacity to experience bliss on a Metaworld Level even though the mundane varies from person to person; and influences our ability to receive, integrate and practice the teachings.
This is what taking Refuge meant to me. My hope is that my description and my insights will help you all on your journey in the same way your support and Grace has helped me.
By Wendy Jayvanti LCSW
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